Creatures Caves

In most of the US, rural houses are faar cheaper than living in the city. Or perhaps they're just less of a rip-off than living in the city. The way I see it, you either pay over 200 grand for a tiny house on a tiny lot that makes home feel like your work, or you pay the same amount for whatever size house on a place larger than 3 acres, which to most people is a LOT of land. Now, of course, most don't know what to do with it though which is just the truth that comes with most people being city-dwellers.

Anyway back on topic, I think everyone at some point gets to those stuck and questioning moments in life. I wonder it waay too often, as I have a pretty nice but also pretty hectic job(s) at the same time, and it's all pretty much what happened to me instead of some career I chased or dream job I went through years of college for. I run a farm and nursery at the same time but also during my hours not working outside, I also paint, write, sculpt, and sell said works for a living. My job to many people might seem like the retired life or the good country life, but, there's a LOT of downsides to it including having literally no social life, living with my parents, getting paid very little, and having pretty much no way out. I wouldn't trade this for anything but a better operation, but I also feel really stuck. I think the main issue though, really, is sadly to say the fact of still living with parents. It's not the funnest thing to admit. I run my own life, but, they did buy the place, and as much as I'd like to get my own operation to run - I can't really earn up enough to do so and just leave this. I run it all pretty much on my own, so naturally there's a LOT of work I put into it that I can't just leave. And it really is nice. The money needed to get another like it would require suddenly working harder to earn a ton more than normal, or working at a different higher paying job for a while, which means giving up working here as it really is a full-time job, then finally earning up to get my own place and starting all over, which for things like orchards and greenhouses takes years. And I'm an impatient person.

But I must confess, through all the stress and et cetera I've gone through in the years, - I'm glad I'm out here in the country and not stuck in an apt. or the suburbs.

In a nutshell though, and as a conclusion, I really do see myself staying in this situation and just trying to work hard enough to prove to my parents to finally have a little more control and privilege. My only worry is their yearly ideas on moving somewhere else. Yeah sure that's nice but if they move and I tag along, - I've got to start all over again. And that I just wouldn't like.